Laughing at yourself

Sometimes the silence of the morning can be harsh. It forces you laugh at the stupid things you do.

Like air quoting for example. I’ve got to stop “air quoting” when I try to articulate what I’ve got to say to people. Sometimes I catch myself air quoting even when I’m thinking of ideas in my head. Its a ridiculous habit.
“Nothing is too important to air quote”.
Much of what we humans have to say ourselves is generally a whole lot of bleh and very little wisdom anyway. Which brings me to the second thing I’m laughing at myself for this morning- I don’t listen enough!

Where does my urge, my hunger to fill up silence come from? Sure, it’s deeply uncomfortable to be sat in a conversation, waiting for somebody else to speak. But I think that’s exactly what I’ve got to do- wait for somebody else to speak. Because most of the time I have nothing valuable to say. Almost all that I value in a conversation, comes from the other person or from the few seconds that I take to think during it. Listen more.

Aha!- and this too- Why do I need so much stuff?!

When you make a buck, you gotta spend half that buck and save the other half- that’s fair. But we’re living through the investing revolution where buying pretty stationary is “investing in yourself”. Well, watch out. Lifestyle creep is a very real thing. You’ll spending two bucks for every buck you earn before you know it. (Again got to try stop air quoting, even in thought.)

So what have I got?
Filling silence with talk and space with stuff, and also air quoting. Those NEED TO GO.
Anyway, this exercise was good.